Ozurie – feeling torn between the life you want and the life you have.
I think many people feel ozurie often. I certainly had a lot of this in my younger years. I’d see the success, the partners, the adventures, the experiences others had and I felt torn. I wanted to change my life.
Today I don’t feel this. Perhaps It’s growing older and more settled, perhaps it’s appreciating the blessings and fortune I have had. My life is really amazing. Even the things that don’t go well, like broken planes or weather damage at the ranch, or a lack of sleep because of commitments are minor issues. I think this is beyond the life I wanted and I have it.
I hope you find that, too.
From the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows